Okay, so things haven’t been going great lately, and I was trying to get into a positive mindset, however I’ve recently had some more bad news. Buuut, before we go into that, let’s have a brief moment to share some “good” news!
*Drum roll* … I have recently become a brand ambassador for Physiq Apparel. These guys produce some quality gym wear; I would model some of what I own, but let’s just say married life hasn’t helped with the physique! Hopefully I’ll be able to model some of it soon as I’m back training now so fingers crossed I can get back to where I was pre-married life.
What it does mean is that anyone who uses my link or code can get 10% off their order (repeatedly!). I then earn some commission, which is a nice bonus, so if you want to support my blog and future content, please consider using my link above or code “HARRISON”. All support is greatly appreciated; let me know in the comment section if you made a purchase using my link.
So, onto the bad news… the business that I work for is having a restructure and it looks like I’m going to be moving teams, unless I take redundancy. So yeah, that definitely adds some stress onto my recent Life Update post! I enjoy working with the team that I am currently in, and that was the main reason that I joined the company over a year ago. I was already finding things tough in my new role, and this news certainly hasn’t helped any. I’m not a big fan of change anyway, but even more so when I don’t have much say in the matter. We’ll have to wait and see what happens, but I need to get my head together and think of my future.
I always have a bit of a wobble when the clocks go back and the nights get darker, so my work situation has just added to that. At the minute I’m just constantly sleepy and have no motivation to do anything. It’s been a while since I felt this drained for this long. I’ve become quite good at shaking off the negative thoughts and turning it into motivation to train. At the moment, even when I get home wanting to run or lift weights, I just feel like I don’t have the mental or physical energy to take action.
To make matters worse, I did a bit of retail therapy the other day to try and make myself feel better (some new protein products, clothes, etc). One of my purchases was for a set of high precision digital bathroom scales. Needless to say, I was pretty eager to try them out as they measure weight, BMI, body fat percentage, etc. This excitement was quite short-lived! I had stopped weighing myself a few weeks before I got married as I knew I was eating a lot of rubbish, but I justified it as I was anxious. Then obviously after the wedding things took a while to settle back down, then came the honeymoon, and before you know it, I went from 8 stone 12 to 9 stone 10! I expected a few extra pounds, but I was thinking more around the 9 stone 4 mark.
This gave me a kick to get back into a routine… until my first run day came around. I was struggling to run 12-minute miles and ended up in heart rate zone 4, rather than my old zone 2. Hitting 3 miles felt like a struggle again, when that used to be my “quick, easy after work” distance. It’s put me off training with my running club for a while as the Thursday runs are usually 5-6 miles, and I would struggle to run that distance at my old club night pace.
Needless to say, I’m finding things a bit tough at the minute! Still, I didn’t intend for this post to seem so negative… I’m just stuck in a void of feeling really tired and lacking motivation, but then feeling guilty for wasting my evenings and weekends sleeping and not being productive. I was hoping to get through to Christmas and then go with the “New Year, new me” mantra, however with things at work happening quickly, I don’t think I’ll be able to wait that long so something will have to change. I think I need to sit down and decide on some new goals to work towards. At the moment I’m only signed up the Liverpool Marathon in May 2020, so I could do with setting myself up with some more events too.
In the meantime, please bear with me as I try to also get past the writer’s block and find the mental energy to blog! I know that like any storm it will get better in time, it just feels like I’m taking a pretty strong bruising from this one at the minute.